Have I told you this secret before ? No ?
Ok... Yes, I took a guy's cherry before..No, I didn't rape him.
It happened years ago, while I was still in Uni. I have this coursemate (our course isn't that huge) who doesn't seem any different initially.
But as years go by, I had quite a number of friends. During our final year we had to do projects. I would usually pop by and chat with my friends, call them out for lunch or tea-breaks frequently.
Now, this guy (lets call him G) is doing software if I didn't remember wrongly. Software lab tables are usually lower and I usually sit on the tables talking to my friends.
On this occasion, I was sitting beside his huge monitor, talking to him while he was sitting on his chair. So it was like, my belly was at his eye level. No, he wasn't looking at my belly or crotch (at least, I didn't notice him looking.)
He was telling me something and chatting away, and he was pulling one of my fingers and then starting fondling my palm. Not the very sensual fondling but similar to the way a doctor would do casual examination of the hand, touching the calluses and things like that... Except he kept holding and not letting go while he was looking at me and talking about something else, which I can't recall - something casual in nature.
After that incident, I thought he might be gay, but I couldn't sense anything further from him. Soon, lessons ended and it was time to mug for exams.
I didn't see him for a while. One day, I decided to send him an email using our school accounts, as I didn't have his contact. He didn't reply my emails. After a few days, I sent another email, apologizing for my rash assumptions but I am under stress by the exams and such (haha.. what excuse).
Either he replied my email, or we met one day. But he let me know that he was angry for writing such a mail, and he was worried that the authorities might be monitoring our mailboxes. I remembered I apologized in person. Than that was it.
Few days (or maybe weeks) later, during the midst of exams, I was staying overnight in campus but without hostel rooms. So it happened that his roommate was away (probably studying at home) and I can stay over one night (I think it was the last or 2nd last paper) while doing revisions together.
We were in his room. Later, he said he is going to sleep and that his roommate doesn't like people touching his bed. So I studied a while more and proceeded to turn off the lights and slept on his bed.
He was facing the wall, and I was facing the other way. After about 10 minutes, he turned around and hugged me. At first, I thought he was asleep. Then he started to stroke my stomach. That's when I realized he wasn't... and one thing led to another.
Basically, we got each other off and he hugged me and said I was his first. I didn't know but that was the start of some mini nightmare.
We met each other frequently in school, and a few times while in the loo (since our labs are just beside one another and I wasn't those use-once-and-throw kind of guy) he tried to "seduce" me. I told him it was dangerous and stuff like that, but I think he was overcome by emotions/lusts.
There was even this once, he tried to kiss me while we were at the door of the washroom and someone came in. He didn't see us, as the door banged on me while it opened and he took a step back...
I think after being molested a few times by him, and telling me that he fell in love with me, I finally told him that what happened that night was just a one-off thing and he shouldn't hope for anything more.
He didn't feel like talking to me after that, though we didn't act like we were enemies. Just not as close. After graduation, we lost contact. I tried to contact him few years ago, but failed.
