3 years and all the lovelier

It has been almost 3 years since I am with my current boyfriend. Not considered long for a relationship, not too short either.

Based on observations around me, many gay relationships dwindle past the first year. I can't say too much about straight relationships, but those that I had before were like that too.

Put me overseas for a few days on a working trip (whether alone or with colleagues), I still miss my boyfriend a lot. Especially while waiting to board the flight back to Singapore.

Ask me to go out for dinner with my not-so-close colleagues and I will hesitate to join in. I much prefer to spend a quiet evening at home with my boyfriend having simple dinner and just watching TV.

So this is love ?

Wild, hot passionate sex sessions are not as numerous as the first year, I dare say. But the love of the heart is still the same. Perhaps even more after these years.

Sleeping alone in bed, though I get better quality sleep, is always not as nice as knowing someone is lying beside me. I do get disturbed in the middle of the night (and I am sure my turing disturbs him a little too) but I would rather wake up in his arms any day, quality sleep or not.

Time of the Year

It's the time of the year again.
Soon, my company's DnD event.

It has always been a bit tough for me, as I will always not be able to be comfortable coming out to my whole company.

That means I have to enjoy lonely time, while I see others having fun with their spouses.

Or I may also join the single guys and talk about girls and talk about going to "have fun".

Am I not giving my colleagues a chance ? Am I just too scared ?